Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Confessions from a Dormitory Chapter 9

I believe everyone has their place in this world and that God gives us different abilities to use for the benefit of others and His glory. During the course “The Tabernacle of Moses” the instructor went over many aspects of the tabernacle that the Israelites built in the desert. We had been approaching the items used for the tabernacle’s construction when my mind had chosen somewhere around that time to daydream. So when the instructor mentioned the Spanish word garfio, all I had understood was “Garfield”. Garfield? As in the fat orange cat? What does Garfield have to do with this? During our 15 minute intermission I made sure to ask around and eventually corrected my notes to garfio or hook.

The instructor had mentioned that in life we are like those wooden boards that stand upright together, but in that body are also brethren that must serve as hooks to link us together to one another. He went on to explain that these hooks represent ‘to place another on fire’, that as they connect one board to another they dig into them, causing pain, representing people who like to be ‘hooks’, making people mad.

One blessed sister whom all students were obliged to see once a month when paying their monthly subscription was immediately dubbed Sister Garfio in my mind that morning. It was quite a narrow climb towards that admission building. Prior to coming to HMI, I had been warned. Nevertheless, I don’t think anyone can ever truly prepare themselves to meet with Sister Garfio.
It was on my arrival that I was called almost immediately into her office. My name had been voiced on the intercom for the first time. It felt exciting at first to hear my name like that. I had thought it was cool.
            After introductions Sister Garfio bluntly said “You’re paperwork isn’t in order”. I frowned, I
had thought I’d been careful with everything. I had received my shots, I had my passport… “I can’t send your paperwork to the embassy to file for your visa without a stamp on this paper” she said gruffly while pointing to a document. “Don’t you Americans know how to read?” her lips seemed set on a pout. I turned different shades of red at her biting remark. I didn’t know what to say. What was there to say? How do you answer that? Am I supposed to answer that?

            Somehow I managed to form some words, “Many of us do read, but it doesn’t mean we necessarily understand everything.” Was that a smart answer? I worried afterwards. Maybe that was a rhetoric question, but she had looked up at me from behind her small round glasses as if she had expected something so…I answered her. I had felt provoked, but only because I was scared and for the first time feeling threatened by such a confrontational person. Geeze, here I was on my first day and I couldn’t even take this old lady’s remark? My mother was forever telling me, “when people are old they don’t reason as much, you should just try to give them their way instead of expecting them to understand.” But with her verbal attack I wasn’t feeling as meek as my mother. I had a cell phone, but not yet purchased my new sim card. I was forced to dial a collect call that morning to my home. I knew both my parents were at work. I prayed for someone to answer the phone.

            “Hello?” I heard William’s voice on the line. I felt a lump in my throat and took a deep breath.
            “Will?” I asked gasped out. I answered quickly before an embarrassing sob could come out. I never cried in front of my family if I could help it. It wasn’t because my family frowned on it, I just felt as if it was a sign of weakness. It was much too personal, and I felt exposed when others saw my tears. “Umm…I’m here.” I paused each time to breathe in deeply. “It looks like” I blinked repeatedly, fighting the tears that threatened my already stinging eyes, “Something is missing...Sister Yoli (Sister Garfio) said…I need a stamp…from the embassy?” I don’t know if I imagined it, but it seemed as if William could see me through the phone. I had always been very private with my feelings at home so it had surprised me to feel as if knew me better than I had let on. Perhaps he was remembering his own experience with Sister Yoli, or maybe he could hear it in my frequent pauses, short gasps, or broken voice.

            “Okay, I’ll tell dad when he gets home. Don’t worry” he repeated over and over, “Don’t worry. You know Sister Yoli? She’s always like that. But don’t worry, everything is going to be okay.” I almost let out a sob of relief as he tried to comfort me through the phone. I felt his connection that ran through curled tendrils from the black phone that I held. I almost wished he hadn’t tried to though because it was so difficult to hold back that cry of relief.
I could only bob my head up and down and answer “uhuh, yeah ok.” I was still trying to hold myself together, trying to cage my sobs that begged to escape, but my pride ran through, a stronger force that quieted them down and made them lie dormant for another day. It would have to wait for a more convenient time.

That was some welcome, but as the year went by and I continued to visit Sister Yoli every month, I began to notice something from that old lady with salt and pepper hair. I began to identify myself with the stoical woman behind those pastel business suits. She was a hardcore woman. A tough cookie to crack. And I was a lot like her, very strong willed. I would eventually make more trips to her office out of my own free will and talk about some of my goals, sometimes fiddling with the items on her desk like I had done with my father’s desk as a child.

            “What are you doing?” she asked the first time grouchily.
            “I’m just organizing your paperclips and rubber bands.” I looked up to her innocently. She would go back to ignoring me for a few minutes before picking up the conversation again.

            “Well you know, some people come in here and mess up my papers and then I don’t know where to find them.” From my visits I learned that she was widowed at a young age and forced to be the sole bread winner for her daughters. I would go on to learn that Sister Yoli had survived the terrifying years of guerilla warfare in Nicaragua as well. She had had a very hard life, but despite that she was alive and working at HMI, serving in the best way she knew how. I like to think she developed some affection for me. I know she watched me, otherwise she wouldn’t have taken notice of my awkward walk.

            “Get back here,” she said one day as I was leaving her office. “You walk wrong.” By this time I had grown very accustomed to her frankness and didn’t take any offense. I simply assented, because even my own mother said I walked funny. To this day my shoulders seem to tense whenever I walk in public. “Your steps are too big too, watch this.” After making me watch her petite form walk up and down the hallway, an arm stretched outward holding an imaginary purse, she made me repeat her example. My mother had only given me one lesson with heals before my fifteenth birthday, but aside from that, I had always taken large steps to catch up to Edward’s and my father’s large gait. Old habits die hard and I am sorry to say that Sister Yoli’s walking lessons didn’t quite stick, but I did make an effort when I knew she was around my perimeter.


Some of my first year experiences had been strenuous, scary, and bizarre, but I am grateful for all of them. Had it not been for those early Breakfast hours, isolation, and even Sister Yoli—yes, even her, I might not have known some of my strengths and weaknesses. I might not have learned that through God’s grace, I would find the means to overcome them and found experiences that would help the new students in the following year. 

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

¿Te sientes inútil?

¿Te sientes inútil?


¿No conoces aún cual es el llamado de Dios para tu vida?

No te desanimes.
¡Hay tanto que hacer en mientras!

Si piensan que esto es una gran revelación, estarán decepcionados, PERO, quizás si sea la respuesta para tu vida.

Hace años, yo estaba barriendo, nada muy emocionante. Y por eso sentía que estaba perdiendo tiempo. Estaba ansiosa de empezar algo importante, quería sentir que estaba ayudando en la obra de Dios…saber que Él me estaba usando de una manera u otra.

Eso era el problema. Yo estaba ciega a Su voluntad. Y ni se diga de mi mentalidad. No entendía en ese momento el versículo que dice:
El que es fiel en lo muy poco, también en lo más es fiel
-Lucas 16:10
Mientras meditaba en esos pensamientos y contemplaba cual era el propósito de Dios para mi vida solo sabía una cosa. Señor, yo quiero usar mi vida para servirte de alguna manera…pero no sé cómo.

En lo que baría el piso pude ver en mi mente una figura de caricatura.
Esta figura tenía su cuerpo en la posición de una atleta, estaba ladeado en diagonal como si estuviera corriendo.

Después le pude ver los pies. ¿Han visto alguna vez como se dibuja una caricatura que está corriendo? No se le ven los pies. Va a una velocidad tan rápida que solo se ven los pies en forma de ruedas que representa la velocidad.


Después, me fije de una cosa. Por alguna razón, yo presentía que la caricatura no avanzaba, estaba haciendo un esfuerzo tan grande para correr, pero no importaba lo que hacía, no iba a ningún lado.

Parecía que la cámara de mi visión seguía disminuyendo el zoom y es cuando finalmente podía ver porque no avanzaba la figura. Tenía puesto un suéter con capucha y había una mano enorme, dos veces más grande que la caricatura.

Y en medio del dedo puntero y el pulgar esta mano tenia detenido la capucha de esta pequeña figura.


Pude entender después de ver todo esto como si alguien me lo hubiera dicho: “Tú quieres correr, pero aun no es tu tiempo. Cuando ya sea tiempo, te soltare y podrás correr.”

Aun no era en el plan de Dios que yo corriera. Solo tenía creo 18 años en ese tiempo y Dios aun me estaba preparando, primero, con enseñarme a servir a otros.

No creo que mucho ha cambiado desde entonces de cosas emocionantes en mi vida, PERO si eh llegado a entender más que a veces tenemos una perspectiva diferente de Dios (Isa 55:8-9). Y unas de esas áreas es que malinterpretamos el significado de lo poco y de lo más que Jesús se refiere en Lucas 16:10.

A veces yo eh tomado algo como lo poco que Dios está pidiendo de mí, pero muchas veces ese poco que yo hago, que nosotros hacemos es grande para el Reino de Dios.

Si ese poco es solo dar una sonrisa, o un saludo amigable a una persona, solo Dios sabe si le has salvado la vida. ¿Cuantas personas no hay que se quitan la vida porque sienten que nadie se fija en ellos?

A veces, una palabra de ánimo, alienta una persona para seguir en el camino de Dios, para que no desmaye y se dé por vencido.

Para nosotros, que no vemos los efectos de nuestras acciones ‘pequeñas,’ pensamos que no es nada y estamos esperando que Dios nos ponga hacer más en su obra.

Pero les quiero invitar a ser como Abraham, quien, sin ver el cumplimiento total de las promesas de Dios, mantuvo la fe y siguió en su camino con Dios. Claro, hubo errores, pero no significa que ahí nos debemos de quedar.

Si estas esperando que Dios te mande a la China o la África para ser evangelista o misionero sin hacer otras cosas primero, te vas a quedar esperando.


Cada persona tiene un tiempo de preparación. Y no digo que lo eh logrado terminar yo. Al contrario, aún estoy pasando por ese proceso. Aun no sé cómo Dios quiera usarme, pero ese anhelo para servirle, sigue ahí.

Y no quiero contar con mucho detalle de eso aquí porque ya lo eh mencionado en mis relatos de “Confessions from a Dormitory” y en “Un Viaje Espiritual”.

Por en mientras que esperan saber qué es lo que Dios tiene para ustedes, hay muchas cosas en que uno se puede dedicar.
Hay tantos enfermos por quien uno puede interceder delante de la presencia de Dios. Quizás, uno tiene forma para visitarles o ayudarles en algo que no pueden hacer durante este tiempo en que se encuentren debilitados.

Seguramente hay algún joven o jovencita de sus iglesias que podrían beneficiar de tu amistad.

Quizás algún hermano o hermana de tu iglesia, o aun el vecino está pasando un tiempo difícil emocionalmente. Tus palabras edificantes, tu presencia positiva o sencillamente tus saludos alegres pueden hacer una diferencia en esa persona.

Quizás piensas, “Si, pero solo en una persona, quisiera hacer más”
La Biblia dice, “hay gozo delante de los ángeles de Dios por un pecador que se arrepiente” (Lucas 15.10). Vemos la importancia que Dios le da a UNA sola persona. Así también debemos de gozarnos por la una persona que Dios pone en nuestro camino para ser una mano extendida para ellos.

¿Ven como no hay tiempo para quedarnos esperando sin hacer nada?
Si tenemos tiempo, hay que aprovechar ese 'tiempo de preparación' y en mientras
  • Llenarnos de las palabras de Dios con leer Su palabra para tener palabras edificantes para compartir con otros
  • Pasar tiempo en el lugar secreto con Dios, haciendo crecer nuestra amistad, para que El llene nuestra vasija diariamente y tener más de El para compartir con otros.
  • A veces esos tiempos de intercesión nos ponen un peso en el corazón y es difícil descansar en Dios, entregarle nuestras cargas por nuestros hermanos, vecinos, familia etc.… completamente. Por eso con las oraciones+alabanza podemos encontrar alivio y el gozo que necesitamos para andar armados con una sonrisa sincera. =D

     Al mismo tiempo de este proceso de preparación, encontraremos que estamos santificándonos.

    
     Hay que estar preparados, uno nunca sabe cuándo Dios va ocupar nuestra vasija, 
    
     Recuerden que Jesús dijo, “Y por ellos yo me santifico á mí mismo, para que también ellos sean santificados en verdad” (Juan 17:19).

¡Al hacer esto también obtenemos la yapa (el beneficio) de ser imitadores de nuestro Salvador! ¡Que bendición! ¿No?
Recuerdan Jeremias 29:11

Lo siento que esto se tardó en publicar. Solo les puedo pedir perdón que no esperaba enfermarme. Pero voy a proseguir =)

(I do not own these photos; all of the following may be found on google images)

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Trieste-Una città strategica

Trieste, Italia



1.        
Ho deciso di fare la mia presentazione di Trieste perche é una cittá piena di storia. 
Questa città é di piu importanza per me perche la Università degli Studi di Trieste ofre un programa di scambio con studenti di SDSU. E io voglio studiare li.
Ma anche, ho scelto Trieste  per suo bosco, mare, è la citta, quello invece è un po difficile di trovare in un solo luogo.
2.        

Il nome di Trieste è derrivato di radici tedesche. è una città dentro della provincia di Trieste, ed è il capoluogo della regione di Friuli Venezia Giulia. Il nome di questa regione derriva della lingua Slava, il paese al nord di questa città e provincia. Al sud si trova il Mare Adriatico.          

Per iniziare, voglio parlare del Porto di Trieste perche ha un significato storico e strategico. Ha dato la oportunità a molti imperi crescere i suoi forze navale, economia e commercio. Per questi ragioni, ha cambiato di mani molto volte.

3.        Per sua apertura al mare era ventaggioso ottenerlo per l’imperio austriaco. Questo ha sucesso da 1382 al 1918. Sotto il regime austriaco, Trieste ha sito conosciuto per suo porto gratis che ha dato la libertá a molti per acrescimento economico. 

Fra il regime del imperio austriaco, Trieste ha sito chiamato l’Imperio Austriaco-Ungherese è occupato per Francia durante li Guerre Napeleoniche negli anni 1787, 1805 è 1809. Ma Trieste a sito ritornato dopo la prima guerra mondiale.

4.        
Ma prima della guerre mondiale, voglio menzionare una persona famosa di Trieste che abiamo studiato queste semestre—Umberto Saba, un poeta e scrittore. Come abiamo imparato, lui era nato in Trieste. Era figlio di un commerciante veneziano e una donna ebrea.  Non c’è dubbio che Saba amava questa città è si mostra in suo poema di Trieste.  

Possiamo ascoltare il suo poema en YouTube nella link sotto.

O, possono leggere il suo poema sotto:

"Ho attraversato tutta la città.
Poi ho salita un'erta,
popolosa in principio, in là deserta,
chiusa da un muricciolo:
un cantuccio in cui solo
siedo; e mi pare che dove esso termina
termini la città.

Trieste ha una scontrosa
grazia. Se piace,

è come un ragazzaccio aspro e vorace,
con gli occhi azzurri e mani troppo grandi
per regalare un fiore;
come un amore
con gelosia.
Da quest'erta ogni chiesa, ogni sua via
scopro, se mena all'ingombrata spiaggia,
o alla collina cui, sulla sassosa
cima, una casa, l'ultima, s'aggrappa.
Intorno
circola ad ogni cosa
un'aria strana, un'aria tormentosa,
l'aria natia.

La mia città che in ogni parte è viva,
ha il cantuccio a me fatto, alla mia vita
pensosa e schiva."

Anche lui considerava Trieste come suo paese, c’è un tempo quando si trovò come un fuggitivo e
questo portaci alle seconda guerra mondiale, un evento che affetto la politica e le popolazione Triestini.

5.     
Durante questa guerra, Trieste era dominato per le tedeschi naziste chi hanno convertito la Risiera di San Sabba nell’unico campo di sterminio in tutta Italia. 

Queste campo era un luogo di transizione dove gli ebrei erano trasportato ad altri campi di lavoro. 

Dentro della risiera li tedeschi hanno construito un forno crematorio ma fu destruito prima di partire.
 
La Risiera era un campo di concentramento dove erano eliminato ostaggi, partigiani, prigioneri politici e l’ebrei.
Oggi la Risiera di Santa Sabba ha sito convertito in un monumento nazionale.

E anche questo ha sito parte della storia triste di Trieste, credo che dobbiamo ricordare che questa cittá ha sito un rifugio per l’ebrei durante le Inquisizione Spagnolo nel 1492. Anche ha sito conosciuto come la Porta di Sion dopo la guerre mondiale quando le navi navigava con ebrei a Palestina. In queste tempo li triestini erano ospitale alle ebrei chi aspettavano partire.
6.        


Per terminare voglio mostrare altri attributi di Trieste che sono l’architettura neoclassica come questa che è usata come le Comune di Trieste, ma come possono vedere vecino al Canale Grande si trovano altri edifici del stesso stile. Molti delle palazzi hanno sito construito sotto le regime del’imperio austriaco. Alcuna è il Palazzo Carciotti. Quello era il primo palazzo fato di queste modo ed altri chi hanno seguito queste stile decoroso sono le Palazzi Gopcevich, Tergesteo, Lloyd Triestino, Modello e più che si trovano vecino al Canale Grande di Trieste.
 


Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Benjamin Franklin and the power of the Holy Spirit

Primary Analysis
            Benjamin Franklin wrote Upon Hearing George Whitefield Preaching in 1771. This account was written in Franklin’s autobiography testifying to his readers the historical event of witnessing Evangelist George Whitefield preaching to an enormous crowd during the Great Awakening.
            Two significant events that were occurring at the time of this event were the Great Awakening and the rise of power among women near the end of colonial America.  First of all, a great evangelist who took part in this religious phenomena of the Great Awakening was George Whitefield. Whitefield preached powerful words that reached and filled the need and void of many people (Oakes 122). The sermons given in revivals during the time of the Great Awakening brought on religious fervor and unity among the people as Benjamin Franklin said in the following:
The Multitude of all Sects and Denominations that attended his Sermons [i.e. Evangelist George Whitefield] were enormous…It was wonderful to see the Change soon made in the Manners of our Inhabitants; from being thoughtless or indifferent about Religion, it seem’d [seemed] as if all the World were growing Religious, so that one could not walk thro’ [through] the Town in an Evening without Hearing Psalms sung in different Families of every Street (63).
Whitefield’s life and relationship with God was very well known that even soldiers used his clothes as relics for protection five years after his death (Oakes 122).
During this time as well, women were gaining more respect and wielding more power in the home due to the arduous work that they contributed to the home. “Between the American Revolution and the Civil War, so many elements of American society were changing-the growth of population…changes were bound to take place in the situation of women” (Zinn).  It was also out of practicality that frontier women were gaining some degree of equality among men in the world and within the home (Zinn). For example, Martha Moore Ballard, a typical American housewife, “‘baked and brewed, pickled and preserved, spun and sewed, made soap and dipped candles’” (Zinn). It is estimated that as a midwife for twenty-five years, she would have delivered “more than a thousand babies” (Zinn). A woman’s role in the home was also important due to the fact that education transpired within the home itself (Zinn). However, more women were practicing more freedoms outside of the home as well as they began working “at important jobs-publishing newspapers, managing tanneries, keeping taverns, engaging in skilled work. In certain professions, like midwifery, they had a monopoly” (Zinn). All these causes for which women were beginning to step outside their regulated power, obtaining more and not following the normal gender roles of society were the stepping stones to even greater changes in the next century.
The purpose for which this document was written was to relate Franklin’s encounter, reaction and observations of the effect of that the words of Revivalist George Whitefield had on Colonial America. Although it is not documented that Franklin shared a personal encounter with God, he nonetheless, believed greatly in self-improvement. Consequently, he could not understand how such great multitudes would listen avidly to a speaker who would call them, “half Beasts and half Devils” (Voices 63). Therefore, Franklin also marveled and felt excitement while observing the influence Whitefield had over his audience and how they were stirred to positive changes (including himself). Benjamin also wrote about his petty disagreement with Whitefield about his plan to raise money to build orphanages in Georgia instead of bringing the orphans to the New England colonies. Because Whitefield would not heed to Franklin’s advice on this matter, he retracted his thought of contributing financially to this cause. Benjamin Franklin comically confesses at the end of this excerpt that upon hearing Whitefield’s words at the ending of his sermon, he begins to soften and become ashamed; during which he gradually resulted in emptying his pockets of money for Whitefield’s charity. This reading ties in nicely with Oakes because at the beginning of chapter five, it begins directly with an American Portrait of George Whitefield: Evangelist for a Consumer Society. This directly addresses to a similar occasion of which Franklin would have observed in his own experience.
Many historical scholars believe and state that this excerpt from Franklin’s autobiography suggests the persuasive powers of George Whitefield are related to his great oratory skills, therefore, the consequent reason for which Franklin admired Whitefield. However, just how many of these historical scholars who believe, state and teach this idea—including Franklin himself, have actually had such a similar personal encounter with God like Whitefield, his listeners and other people who have thus experienced what Franklin wrote about? Whitefield’s words were spoken with great power and held the ability to persuade the hearts of the people, even the unwilling ones such as Franklin. The reason behind this is because as Whitefield said, “I endeavored to do all to the glory of God,” (Oakes 121) which he attempted to complete to the best of his human ability. As a result, God’s glory was upon Whitefield as well. The word’s he spoke were reinforced by the power of the Holy Spirit. In view of that, many who understand the spiritual side of what occurred in this event will not be as puzzled as Franklin towards the reaction of Whitefield’s listeners.
            This reading was interesting because of Franklin´s foolish behavior in the beginning and how one see´s the change in him towards the events he is witnessing and experiencing. He seems almost childlike as he watches in awe as the multitude accepts Whitefield’s use of name calling. I was disappointed in him when he became petty over a disagreement with Whitefield. However, at the end of this reading I laughed as he felt himself under the influence of the Holy Spirit, which he felt himself powerlessly persuaded to give in. This same feeling continues to occur even today. Like Franklin, I’ve found myself under this same persuasive power as well and I see God’s use of humor as he uses his Holy Spirit to compel me to act or refrain from certain things. When it clicks in my mind of what is going on, I can only shake my head smilingly and say, “Ok God, you win.”

Women’s Role in America since the Antebellum Era


Going back 200 years in history we find that American women during the Antebellum Era were limited to only certain career options. Only those to be considered genteel such as seamstresses, shop keepers, laundresses, maids and cooks are among the few accepted feminine occupations. Very few were even educated and those who were only knew the basic of reading and writing skills. However, it was in the 19th century that the idea of change in women’s roles were coming to a pique; the radical feminist movement of the 19th century would help pave the way for new ideas that would transform the new century. Although there have been great changes in the roles of American women since the antebellum era, the education and career opportunities now available to women are the greatest improvements.
In 19th century America at the beginning of the Antebellum Era, women carried an important, yet invisible role in society. Women had duties very much as strenuous as men. According to Howard Zinn, author of A People’s History of the United States, a common housewife of these early years would have been expected to have “baked and brewed, pickled and preserved, spun and sewed, made soap and dipped candles”, as well as be able to treat family ailments, cook, raise children and most likely be responsible for their preliminary education (Zinn). Although there already did exist acceptable jobs outside the home for a woman, the ideal place for her was at home, according to Coventry Patmore’s popular narrative poem of  Angel in the House. This poem from a 19th century man’s perspective, shows what men think an ideal woman should be. Angel in the House popularized and contextually influenced the development of the idea of the cult of true womanhood as well. This concept of the ideal woman opposed the thought that women had an equally capable mind as men. The cult also taught that too much study harmed the female mind. Therefore, women were deemed incapable of leading or participating in political, and financial matters as well as pursuing an education. Although a British production, Angel in the House greatly influenced the young and impressionable Americans as well. During the antebellum era in the 19th century we still see women who although strong, are being politically, economically and socially oppressed.
According to Antebellum Women by Carol Lasser and Stacey Robertson, Education played a critical role (Lasser and Robertson 28). Young ladies were encouraged to attend dame schools, or finishing schools, known as refinement institutions where young girls were taught basic skills in reading, writing and sums (Lasser and Robertson 29). However, the majority of their education in these educative institutions was composed of female arts and other topics which flattered women such as the arts in music and dance (Lasser and Robertson 29). One example of a dame school is Sarah Pierce’s Litchfield Seminary mentioned in Antebellum Women (Lasser and Robertson 31). However, it was very difficult for women to pursue a more depth and professional education. In fact, prior to the civil war, only three colleges were open to women according to History of American Education by Harry G. Good (482). It is not even clear whether any of the educators were women.
College level education was hard to come by for Antebellum Era Women. Joel Perlmann and Robert A. Margo, authors of Women’s Work? mention that at the beginning, it wasn’t because communities denied girls higher education, it was rather because “they were not sent by their families.” (25). Of course, there were other ingrained factors as to which they were not sent. Such ideologies that a higher education was a waste because ladies were meant to marry, after which, they’d dedicate their lives to their households. There was also the great doubt that women were capable and equal as men in mental prowess. These stereotypes were influential factors that would affect the importance of women’s education. Even by 1850 and 1860 the higher number of student’s genders was always ranked higher by males than females whether in the North or the South according to a chart by Perlmann and Margo (62).
Elizabeth Blackwell is an example of a pioneer educator as she opened the first institution in the medical field for women in the antebellum era. Blackwell was also recognized as “America’s first woman physician” in her autobiography Pioneer Work Opening the Medical Profession to Women (Blackwell v).To achieve her own education was a struggle, and in the end she was accepted because of an accident (Blackwell viii). Emma Willard, another Antebellum woman, was a female activist and prized education and the capacity of the female mind. In her book, A Plan for Improving Female Education, her goal was to “convince the public, that a reform, with respect to female education, is necessary” (Willard 1). Emma Willard is also a pioneer in America’s women history because she created the first woman’s institution for higher education (Willard iii). In Lydia Maria Child Selected Letters, 1817-1880 by Milton Meltzer, Patricia G. Holland and Francine Krasno, Lydia Maria Child was a feminist writer born in 1802 and was also a school teacher when she was a teen (xi). At that current time, the number of female educators were not prominent until “later, especially between 1830s 1860” according to Perlmann and Margo’s Women’s Work? (22).
The challenges of domesticating the newly obtained American territories in the Antebellum Era, gave women the opportunity to fill the gap in which not enough men could fill. In other words the ideal woman would become a man’s greatest asset. One gap that women helped fill was by becoming schoolhouse teachers. Important American women figures who influenced change was First Lady Abigail Powers Fillmore. According to Kirsten Hoganson’s Abigail Powers Fillmore 1st lady 1850-1853, Abigail was like many young women educated by her mother at home (Hoganson 99). Abigail constantly continued her studies through self-education and went onto become a teacher to help financially (Hoganson 99). Cormac O’Brien, author of Secret Lives of the First Ladies gave details that Abigail’s star pupil whom she encouraged and influenced to pursue his education was her future husband Millard Fillmore-future President (72-73). Abigail P. Fillmore continued her career as a teacher after marriage until the birth of her first child (Hoganson 100). First Lady Fillmore was one of the few exceptions to which education and a career was a priority.
There are several reasons for which women became more prominent as educators. Perlmann and Margo explain in Women’s Work? that by the 1840’s, the prominent idea of female educators was appreciated as they were being recognized for their nurture of children (Permann and Margo 7). There was also the unfortunate fact that women were at this current time being oppressed through their unfair wages. Women educators were cheaper to hire than Men educators (Perlmann and Margo 7). By the 1850s many women, especially young women were being hired to work as primary educators in the South while in New England, 84% of all rural teachers were women by 1860 (7). The need for educators was being filled by those who were willing, like the women. As the Civil War grew closer, more women were being educated and becoming educators as well, not only in primary education or dame schools but in college level education as well.

After the Civil War, one of America’s focus was in taming the Mid-West in America; therefore, opening more doors to women education and educators due to the great need (Good 481). Among these real women educators who braved this wild land were Hannah Breece and Miss Treva Adams Strait. Hannah Breece is described by her great niece Jane Jacobs as one of the “Americans on the frontier” in her biography A Schoolteacher in Old Alaska (Jacobs vii). In 1901, Alaska was still a very dangerous place, especially for women, considering the un-dominated rough terrain, all the obsessive gold miners, murderers, black-market traders and Natives there. Breece faced all these dangers at the age of forty-five and taught “Aleuts, Kenais, Athabaskans, Eskimos and people of mixed native and European blood in Alaska” for fourteen years and in skirts and petticoats as well! (Jacobs vii). Later on in 1928, many women opted for the more accessible option of teaching in the Mid-West country like Trevia Adams. According to Adam’s autobiography Miss Adams, Country Teacher, she was 18 when she began teaching, eager to become financially independent (Strait 3). This desire of becoming independent women would win over society, not only as educators, but other careers as well.
Moving forward from the Antebellum Era, we see a stark contrast with American women today. There is no longer that barrier where a women in America is deterred from pursuing a certain education or career because of her gender. Examples of intellectual and successful women in their respective careers today includes Hilary Clinton, who is involved in the nation’s politics and aspired to run for the presidential seat according to Biography.com (Hillary Clinton Biography). Clinton is a graduate of Yale Law School and was also First Lady of the United States (Hillary Clinton Biography). She now continues her occupation as a government official and a Women’s Rights Activist according to biography.com.  Condoleezza Rice, “is the first black woman to serve as the United States' national security adviser, as well as the first black woman to serve as U.S. Secretary of State”, she continues today as a government official (Condoleezza Rice Biography). I conclude with our current President of San Diego City College, Lynn Ceresino Neault. According to San Diego State University’s “Student Biographies” Lynn Neault studied with them and achieved her B.A. and M.A. in Public Administrations. She has since been working for the San Diego Community College District (“Student Biographies”). Women can now proceed to fulfill any ambitious dream today.
            Finally, considering all the changes these prominent women began in their day for a brighter future, educational and career opportunities for women are the greatest improvements. I am very thankful for the opportunity to have learned about these women. I can look back and see how far we have come. Because of them, I am now free to make the choices I desire for myself and my future career as a woman of the 21st Century in America.

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Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Research Paper:The Importance of Paternity in the Victorian Era

Daniel Deronda and the Importance of Paternity in the Victorian Era
Ignorance gives one a large range of probabilities—Daniel Deronda
Mary Anne Evans is mostly known by her pen name, George Elliot to distance herself from her writing; this allowed her to explore many fields and to give her books an equal opportunity in the ‘man’s world’ in which she lived in during the Victorian Era. Daniel Deronda is Eliot’s last novel written in 1876 and the only one to have been set within in her contemporary day. Besides being a controversial novel that explores religion, discrimination of race and class, Eliot also explores the significance of paternity in the Victorian Era by using Deronda’s discovery of his mysterious identity.
The Victorian Era
With the different existing classes in the Victorian Era, Elliot emphasizes the important role that paternity plays with the mysterious identity of Daniel Deronda. As most people whose past is unknown, Deronda is curious of his parentage; at first he believes there is proof that suggests he is not part of the gentleman class in which he has been raised (Eliot 150). There are large portions where he wonders if the truth will ever be made known to him by his guardian Sir Hugo Mallinger whom he calls uncle. In one instance, Deronda questions when “would the time come when his uncle would tell him everything?” (150). However, due to the secrecy of the situation, a part of Deronda fears the truth if such knowledge of his paternity is to be no good (150). Eventually, Deronda’s curiosity will win out when given the chance to find out about his birth.
The Mystery Surrounding Daniel Deronda's Paternity
As Deronda is understood to be the ward of Sir Hugo, their Victorians friends not only have mixed feelings about him, but they also misinterpret Deronda’s status in life. To start with, Sir Hugo’s own nephew describes Deronda as "a sort of ward of Sir Hugo Mallinger's. Nothing of any consequence" (287). There are very likely to be others who feel the same as is the consequences in the Victorian Era when one doesn’t know their parentage. Among Deronda’s humbler friends, he is thought to be part of and related to high class society because he is the ward of Sir Hugo (197). Simply being the ward of a respected gentleman in in the higher circles of the Victorian Era lead people to assume Deronda is of noble birth as well.
Sir Hugo Mallinger
However, the fact that Eliot’s novel revolves around Deronda and his unknown past and his good luck in being the ward of a very wealthy guardian who happens to be the baronet Sir Hugo, breeds false rumors. Because of this fact “everyone says he is the son of Sir Hugo Mallinger, who brought him up; though he passes for a ward” (291). This axiomatic fact confirms that their surrounding friends believe that Deronda’s being Sir Hugo’s ward is a charade and that he’s really the illegitimate son. This rumor is not kept quite so secretly among Deronda and Sir Hugo’s friends, “No one was better aware than he [i.e. Sir Hugo] that Daniel was generally suspected to be his own son. But he was pleased with that suspicion” (154). These two characters that Eliot uses, show a great affection for one another despite the circumstances and uncertainties that Deronda faces. Sir Hugo never imagined the consequences that this would incite or “the way in which the boy [i.e. Deronda] himself might be affected, either then or in the future, by the enigmatic aspect of his circumstances” (154). Although Eliot keeps her readers in the dark for a great part of the novel, she shows the role of importance that paternity has developed in Deronda since a young age.
 Although it is unintentional, the ignorance in which Deronda is purposely kept about his paternity in the Victorian Era begins to have a great emotional strain on him since his adolescence. Deronda’s inquisitive and innocent mind led him to ask his tutor one day about the abundance of nephews among the popes and cardinals. The answer being that their nephews were really their illegitimate children began to turn the wheels in young Deronda’s mind since that moment. “He had always called Sir Hugo Mallinger his uncle” (145). Believing to have just found out that he is really Sir Hugo’s illegitimate son, embarrasses Deronda. It had never occurred to Deronda about his own association with illegitimacy and it pains and consumes his thoughts from thereafter for a long time. “The possibility that here was the secret of his own birth, and that the man whom he called uncle was really his father” brings a strong curiosity, but his timidity prevents him from addressing Sir Hugo directly about this (147). This shock brings Deronda great distress as a child. Although Deronda no longer doubts “that Sir Hugo was his father,” the fact that he doesn’t approach him about it, leads Deronda to interpret it as his father’s silent denial of him and graciously steps aside and accepts the terms (154). The effects of this knowledge burdens Deronda as later on in Eliot’s novel, the confusion overwhelms him when trying to find his place in the world.
No one can know for sure why if it is true, that Sir Hugo doesn’t recognize Deronda as his illegitimate son, being that he has no son to inherit after him. Being an illegitimate son and paternally recognized in the Victorian Era was very important. Gwendolyn, one of Deronda’s Victorian lady friends often wonders how “it must have been a secret hardship to him that any circumstances of his birth had shut him out from the inheritance of his father’s position (373). Not knowing who one’s father was in the Victorian Era, especially those from gentry’s ancestry was important because it disabled young men from obtaining their birthright. If not in wealth, an illegitimate son could certainly benefit from a title or higher connections that could open many doors to a higher class and form of living that he’d not have otherwise. Since a very young age Deronda is aware that “men who were born out of wedlock and were held unfortunate in consequence, being under disadvantages which required them to be a sort of heroes if they were to work themselves up to an equal standing with their legally born brothers” (147). Illegitimacy of birth was serious because it complicated life in the Victorian Era. Because pre-marital relations were forbidden by the Victorian society, out of wedlock births was generally frowned upon by all classes, complicating the lives of the victims born into that situation. The gravity of the importance of knowing one’s paternity in the Victorian Society is that it offered an easier and comfortable life if one happened to be derived from the gentry.
Eliot describes the great societal and economic differences between Sir Hugo’s ward Daniel Deronda and his nephew Henleigh Mallinger Grandcourt. For one, as a ward, Deronda is only under Sir Hugh’s care. This means that “of course he is under some disadvantage: it is not as if he were Lady Mallinger’s son. He does not inherit the property, and he is not of any consequence in the world” (291). Deronda is, however, very fortunate in that his guardian’s high Victorian circle of society which surrounds him, provides connections he would not have otherwise. This allows him to be free to move in any circle which Sir Hugo is connected as well, if Deronda so desires. On the other hand, Sir Hugo’s nephew Lord Grandcourt stands to inherit after him. “In no case could Grandcourt have been a nephew after his own heart; but as the presumptive heir to the Mallinger estates” and “the want of a son to inherit the lands” proves to be a problematic situation for Sir Hugh (139). It is quite out of his hands to choose who inherits after him. “If Sir Hugo Mallinger could have done as he liked with his estates, he would have left them to this Mr. Deronda, since he has no legitimate son” (291). Unfortunately, due to the dogmatic laws that rules the Victorian Era, Deronda knows that not being recognized as Sir Hugo’s illegitimate son disqualifies him from inheriting.
As Deronda comes of age, his unknown identity prompts him to explore life in hopes of finding a place where he feels he belongs. Sir Hugo is surprised that this means Deronda no longer desires to continue his studies at the university, but study abroad instead (162). In Sir Hugo’s mind, Deronda doesn’t “want to be an English gentleman…after all” (162). It is not that Deronda devalues being an Englishman, but he wants the opportunity to “understand other points of view,” and learn through a different perspective other than just the British way (163). Sir Hugo appears to be a bit disappointed by this decision as he had at one time desired Deronda to professionalize himself in a useful career such as politics in which they could both work together. In the end, Sir Hugo understands Deronda’s need find himself and wishes him well (163). This may be considered as the beginning to Deronda’s journey for discovery of his own identity.
Daniel Deronda’s unknown paternity determines his prospects in the well-to-do circles in the Victorian Era because of several factors. The first factor is that he doesn’t have an inheritance by which he can count on to support himself as a gentlemen (291). The second factor is that Deronda doesn’t own his own title or rank of importance in society other than being Sir Hugo’s ward (291). Despite the rumors, without any actual declaration of paternity, Deronda’s status can only be assumed to be rather low if thought over seriously because he possesses nothing of material value. Thanks to Sir Hugo, Deronda receives a modest allowance, enough to support a bachelor with “seven hundred pounds a year” (156). It is enough to get by on his own as a modest gentleman and to support his studies if he so wishes it, but not for more. Despite his unknown parentage, because of his connections through Sir Hugo, Deronda is still “very well received” (291). In the Victorian Era, paternity is of valuable importance if one had higher connections by birth; by the standards of Victorian society, if one had no title, money or connections, one was nobody.
Due Deronda’s unknown patronage, one of the few prospects he has to partake in the higher Victorian societies are his connections through Sir Hugo. Despite that Daniel has not many high or powerful connections of his own, he does possess great influence among Sir Hugo’s circle. One example is when Deronda invites Mirah—a Jewish girl he’s saved and is trying to help her re-enter the musical career, he is commended over finding such a talented singer (496). Mirah becomes quite popular at the party and the night is a success for Mirah and incidentally for Deronda as well. Deronda also has great influence over Gwendolyn—Grandcourt’s young wife. Granted, she sees Daniel as one see’s one’s savior. Gwendolyn is very familiar with Deronda, however, their relationship is respectable, and can be modernly compared to that of an abused wife and her respectable, but very handsome therapist. She seeks him out at every opportunity to relieve herself of her marital burdens. In a letter near the end of Eliot’s novel, Gwendolyn writes thanking and apologizing to Deronda:
I have remembered your words--that I may live to be one of the best of women, who make others glad that they were born. I do not yet see how that can be, but you know better than I. If it ever comes true, it will be because you helped me. I only thought of myself, and I made you grieve. It hurts me now to think of your grief. You must not grieve any more for me. It is better--it shall be better with me because I have known you. (709)
To those whom Deronda encounters and befriends of Sir Hugo’s circle, he gains advantage and connections that can be useful to him in the Victorian era, despite not knowing his parentage.
Another prospect that Deronda possesses in order to partake in the high society during the Victorian Era despite his mysterious background are his natural recommendations. Deronda may be compared to the un-wealthy young ladies of the Victorian Era where beauty speaks for itself. Since childhood, Deronda is admired by many and thought to be a beautiful boy (154). As a grown man Eliot describes him as “young, handsome,” and “distinguished in appearance” (7). Besides his physical beauty, other natural recommendations that Deronda may rely upon are similar to the un-wealthy and plain ladies in the Victorian Era—virtues. The possession of virtues are an asset during the Victorian Era especially if one was not wealthy, plain or without title like Deronda. His university friend Hans Meyrick, sees the compassionate affection quality which Deronda possesses when he saves Mirah Lapidoth on their first encounter where she nearly committed suicide from drowning (411). Hans also relates Deronda’s goodness and virtues to his family (197). For Daniel, his compassion and goodness has no reservations; he always has an ear for Gwendolyn’s troubles, looking out for Mirah’s wellbeing and that of his friends like the Meyrick family as well as for those outside his own assumed age, class, race and ethnicity. Deronda is a person who gives attention to all, including the usually seen-but not heard children. This causes one mother to become “enchanted with this handsome young gentleman, who appreciated remarkable children” (346). These virtues that Deronda possesses are a great asset to Daniel that help smooth over the mystery of his paternity in the Victorian Era.
Not knowing one’s paternity in the Victorian Era was a humbling experience; therefore, it is an important factor that molds Deronda’s character. Growing up believing that he is an illegitimate child in the Victorian Era proves to be humbling for Deronda. This element plays a dynamic role in Deronda’s life which molds him into a compassionate individual. He demonstrates these characteristics by being able to befriend Gwendolyn prior and after her marriage to Grandcourt. Even when he has at one time been attracted to her, he puts aside his own feelings and doesn’t condemn her for her choice of marriage. Rather, he demonstrates true compassion by simply listening to her and encouraging her to live, and to not pity herself but to focus her energy on others whose plight is far worse than her emotionally abusive marriage. Deronda pities her in her choice of marriage, “poor thing! She may have been urged into it. How can one feel anything else than pity for a young creature like that” (356). Another example of Deronda’s compassion is when he saves Mirah’s life. “He felt an outleap of interest and compassion toward her” that Deronda not only saves her life, but helps reconnect her with her long lost family (165). Eliot interestingly depicts Deronda as a self-sacrificing individual who puts others before himself. Daniel might not have this quality of compassion which he has developed through the humbling knowledge of his questionable paternity.
The Meyrick Family
Another characteristic that Deronda has developed as a consequence of the embarrassment that he has endured on the subject of his unknown parentage is his ability to adapt easily in any circle. He easily blends into the parties of the higher class hosted by Sir Hugo and/or his friends (386). There are also his middle class friends like the Meyrick family whom Deronda often spends time with, where he is quite at ease as well (178). Deronda is also quite comfortable outside of his own cultural circle. While searching for Mirah’s family he encounters Ezra Cohen’s shop and his family and eventually Mirah’s own brother Mordecai. Believing that there is the possibility that they are related to Mirah, Deronda even spends the Sabbath with them (350). Deronda’s respect for the family and curiosity of their culture and religion “thus left the most favorable impression behind him” (347). Deronda is easily adapted to any circle he enters despite social class, culture and religious differences demonstrating the humbleness he’s developed as an effect of his unknown paternity.
Deronda's Jewish mother
Eliot finally brings readers to light about Deronda’s paternity which defines his identity in the Victorian Era. Deronda’s answer to his paternity comes by letter from his mother, Princess Leonora Halm-Eberstein (540-541). In this moment where Deronda discovers his paternity, he is neither an illegitimate child, nor is Sir Hugo his father, but an old friend and admirer of his mother. He discovers his father is dead and his mother a once renowned vocalist. However, the most important factor which Deronda discovers upon meeting with his mother in Genoa is that they are of Jewish decent (550). Deronda discovers that the primary reason why his mother placed him under the care of her admirer Sir Hugo is because as she states, “the bondage I hated for myself I wanted to keep you from. What better could the most loving mother have done? I relieved you from the bondage of having been born a Jew” (550). Knowing about his paternity is something important to Deronda, yet the discovery that he is a Jew is not welcoming by Victorian society. If people that he encounters from the higher classes possessed this knowledge, he may be ruined, socially speaking. Due to the anti-Semitism in the Victorian Era, Deronda is committing a form of social suicide by accepting his paternity, no longer fearing the truth, but embracing it whole heartedly. With his encounters with the Cohen family and eventually Mirah’s own brother Mordecai, Deronda becomes more aware of what his purpose is on earth. Constance M. Fulmer, author of “Daniel Deronda” a work analysis explains that Deronda’s “moral perception broadens as he becomes aware of his own identity and his mission as a Jew” (Fulmer). Through the discovery of his parentage Deronda finds the purpose and meaning for himself that he has been seeking for a long time.
Deronda's Jewish Wedding Ceremony
Deronda’s previous experiences determine his future decisions once his paternity is established. Now that Deronda possesses the knowledge that he is Jewish he embraces his culture and religion, incorporating it into his life.  According to the article “Daniel Deronda (1876)”, through his friend Mordecai, Deronda embraces “his vocation and leader of his people”. This greatly influences his decision in marrying the beautiful Mirra Lapidoth instead of the recently widowed and liberated Gwendolyn Grandcourt (704). The news is a bit of a disappointment for his mother who wished to free him from the Jewish label and for Sir Hugo who’d hope for an English gentleman’s life for Deronda. Some see it as Deronda throwing away all his potential and life away by associating himself with the Jewish people through marriage with Mirah. According to Constance M. Fuller, author of “Daniel Deronda” a work analysis, she states that Deronda learns “that to lose one’s life is to find it” (Fulmer). Throughout the journey of his life he has faced shame and developed humility while becoming a compassionate individual. The experience that Deronda has lived from childhood to adulthood have prepared him for the life he has chosen with Mirah. Carolyn F. Dickinson, author of the work analysis essay on “Daniel Deronda” writes how this “discovery resolves dilemmas of identity and vocation” for Deronda (Dickinson). Readers see how important paternity is considered to be in the Victorian Era and the consequences of knowing or not knowing one’s paternity.
Eliot’s novel of Daniel Deronda is a large journey of Deronda’s self-discovery of his paternity and the great importance that it had in the Victorian Era. One’s paternity could either make you or break you in society, determining whether or not one is permitted into the in-crowd of Victorian Society. However, Eliot also showed the negative emotional effects of not knowing one’s paternity as well as the benefits of the ignorance of it and the positive consequences that molded the affected individuals into stronger characters like Deronda. 
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